I don't want to get too much into it at this time, but my husband has been having affair since a little after I came to AA.
The good news is, I have no desire to pick up a drink. I have a solid network, my sober family, who have held me up. They are walking through this with me. I have a Higher Power who has a plan for me. I know that my kids and I will be alright. I hit my knees several times a day. I pray constantly, Thy will be done, Thy will be done.
I don't know what's going to happen, but I will be alright. I have peace and faith and hope in my heart, and it's all because of AA.
More later................
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betrayal is the worst. cause it can poison the mind if you let it. accept it happened, it was beyond your sphere of control, it had nothing to do with you. and try to deal with it as best you can and move on. try not to dwell on it. i'll pray for you too that you get through this, sooner rather than later. you deserve better. you deserve more. and somewhere over the horizon it's waiting for you. go out and get it when you are ready!
This hits home for me. Sometimes when things are missing for a long time in a marriage, the dynamics change and when they do, we're treading on dangerous waters. I've been there. Hope that all will be okay during this difficult time.
Ouch! I feel your pain. My wife filed for divorce on my 4th anniversary. Part of the reason was that she liked me even less sober than she did drunk. I survived, more than survived. You will too.
I'm praying for your family girl, your HP will carry you through. You have the tools and this too in time shall become a bump in the road your and we all trudge together. I have faith you'll come through the other side. A healthy, strong SOBER woman.
All my love,
Shugrr
Something better is waiting for you
Awww, a BIG HUG for you today Clarity, and hopefully some words of comfort that I read today "He won't bring you to it if He won't help you through it"= this may not be an exact quote...
I am very proud of how hard you are working on your recovery Clarity, you are growing so much and it suits you well!
Oh man.... I'm so sorry. So very sorry. Like Shadow said, you can't control his actions. It has nothing to do with you or your actions, everything to do with him and his actions. Take care of YOU and your children right now. Go to meetings, call people, cry, get angry, laugh... whatever you need to do.
Thinking of you and praying for you.
Betrayal and infidelity is an awful thing. Don't bung it up inside. Get it out at meetings.
:-(
(((clarity)))
:-)
What shadow said, mostly.
Take it easy, sweetheart. Men are dogs (I know this cos I am a man)
I agree with shadow, betrayal is definately the worst. I don't know how they manage to do it.
Hang in there. It will get better. I was in the same place a year ago.
hey! you're very quiet. i hope you're okay!
I am sorry that you're going through this... I don't know anything much about it all or any details but I can surely offer you my prayers and support as a kind listener/reader... stay close to your program and sponsor!
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